tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29921517505640342892024-03-05T13:53:50.912-05:00The G GalleryGIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.comBlogger58125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-8089758128329855992010-09-17T23:14:00.009-04:002010-09-18T01:37:02.204-04:00Mile by Mile<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLx-bLhfHRVm7RioPBbddlssYxEqPWHrikRgI9-kHwdNCsmtrTN4O52-dFmzVffItbOxpvwTLbGlKViaPKfKhTsS2IoW3K6nTmzMFgIE6VY82nFeAHK1m56_kZknAJlV1QhWu5iLPw4JAT/s1600/IMG00070-20100915-0804.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLx-bLhfHRVm7RioPBbddlssYxEqPWHrikRgI9-kHwdNCsmtrTN4O52-dFmzVffItbOxpvwTLbGlKViaPKfKhTsS2IoW3K6nTmzMFgIE6VY82nFeAHK1m56_kZknAJlV1QhWu5iLPw4JAT/s320/IMG00070-20100915-0804.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5518112102050636834" /></a><br /><div>Is this thing on?</div><div><br /></div>Wow! It's been a year and 6 months since the last time. I'm so pleased to still have followers of my blog. Glad you all stuck around (whether or not you were really paying attention). For a long time I felt like I lost my voice to share anything here. It's still that way to an extent, but tonight I felt like I wanted to say something. The closest I've gotten to this site is Twitter, where I get to "micro blog" instead of a full fledged outpouring. A lesson I've learned is that there is sometimes strength in silence. You know, in critical times, you have to streamline. However, I can't even begin to catch you up on every single detail that's happened in my life over the past 18 months. In summary.....I've had a lot of ups and faithful downs. A lot of meeting and greeting. Some gains and some bitter losses. I've made some life choices that have completely changed the course of where I <span style="font-style:italic;">thought</span> I was headed. What can I say? I have definitely become more refined through my experiences and stepping further into the sprawl of wisdom. With these changes, some things have remained the same. Maybe not in the same textures, but the same forms. One thing's for sure, I am still my openly sentimental self. I own it more these days unapologetically. It's one of those things falling under the"What I know for sure" files.<div><br /></div><div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9JtIkZhP2CmHUxAxwJkrm_WrrRMxQEm-BS0c48LdB7edPgJO8DQ1suSEtN8VZkZwam0havAJ4N5_ROYLoctTZrfpuHlypiAqhv52_YYXoNYHM5E4krJDs3whZmaN6lmRhUxzJjiQOOcwY/s1600/fouragreements.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 221px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9JtIkZhP2CmHUxAxwJkrm_WrrRMxQEm-BS0c48LdB7edPgJO8DQ1suSEtN8VZkZwam0havAJ4N5_ROYLoctTZrfpuHlypiAqhv52_YYXoNYHM5E4krJDs3whZmaN6lmRhUxzJjiQOOcwY/s320/fouragreements.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5518095846026289106" /></a>Recently, I read a book titled "<i>The Four Agreements" </i>by Don Miguel Ruiz that has contributed to some new found liberations. This life guide is basically about not being bound by the "dreams" of the earth that we've been born into and are taught as the "right way" as it is relative to your respective culture, experiences and environment. The four agreements are: <i>Be impeccable with your word, Don't take anything personally, Don't make assumptions </i>and <i>Always do your best</i>.<i> </i>Because of this book, I've<i> </i>really been freed from some of the things that were notorious for frustrating me. It helps me to understand that everybody's actions and words are based upon their <i>own </i>reality and agreements they've made in their own lives. It has nothing to do with me. An example of this could be, just because I believe in fairy tale type love stories and you don't, it's okay. It's an agreement I've made with myself and accepted. I don't have to "agree" to your disbelief of this matter. Your feelings are based on your own reality and what you've agreed to for your life and the list goes on and on. I'm certainly being changed by this new perspective. Well....new to me. It's a very slow process, but it's one of those things that you'll have to revisit often for reinforcement and more clarity. </div><div><br /></div><div>I guess it's very telling of where and what I've been evolving into. I'm such a stickler for improvement.</div><div><br /></div><div>On a lighter and completely different note, I picked up Fantasia's new album that I was really anticipating and not at all disappointed. Well, the whole suicide bit made me a little nervous, but she's "sangin" her way up out of that so it seems. I'm really excited about the flood of R&B music we've gotten (Monica) and have yet to receive (Faith Evans, Kelly Price). It's all well needed music for me. </div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, I'm bittersweetly excited about fall slowly inching in. Maybe it'll bring me some <i>good </i>things and some new wonders that I've never had before and the inspiration to blog about it. I don't know, but this is a start for 2010.</div><div><br /></div><div>In the meantime, check out this video of Fantasia ending "Even Angels" and beginning and preaching "Bittersweet". Until the next time.....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><object width="640" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/zk_uohZlRYw?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/zk_uohZlRYw?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object></div>GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-82876429238836494822009-03-22T16:00:00.005-04:002009-03-22T17:31:14.937-04:00Authenticity<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg6N8dG73BaIdRJ1EaFOjN3hXQs3zJCZGYEWB6-Lywt4EY6YQOF7j79tcN8INKCyStGYar88DIob7vQK4_zwphcsydmMVMhxs_bOU-Cuz1mI5IBIZ1YE7BoH8sN-FNdrJIuZEDObD2VQZu/s1600-h/195456356_76908fcf98.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 216px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg6N8dG73BaIdRJ1EaFOjN3hXQs3zJCZGYEWB6-Lywt4EY6YQOF7j79tcN8INKCyStGYar88DIob7vQK4_zwphcsydmMVMhxs_bOU-Cuz1mI5IBIZ1YE7BoH8sN-FNdrJIuZEDObD2VQZu/s320/195456356_76908fcf98.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5316127711353740818" /></a><br />As this beautiful Sunday unfolds, I'm finding that a good bit of revelation has been weaved into the fibers of each minute towards today's benediction. There is one thing that I have said so often in my life, that "energy doesn't lie". Those words consistently prove themselves to me over and over again. I bring this up because lately it seems that events and people around me have been saying <em>out loud</em>, the things that I've been feeling in one shape or another. These confirmations have finally revealed to me that it's not just me, but these energies are indeed being projected with accuracy of the intentions in which they were born. This becomes so impactful to me today because for so long in my life, there has been so much that I have left unsaid. There have been many occasions and still are from time to time, when I have denied my true feelings for the sake of harmony and peace. Truthfully, I thrive in the space of harmony and peace.<br /><br />However, I was reading over something online today and the word "authentic" was in the text. It jumped out at me before the sentence it was a part of did. I didn't really ponder further on it at the moment, but it still remained close in mind. Then I returned a friend's phone call and through that conversation, it came back to me again and I had a bit of an "Aha!" moment. Through yet another confirmation, the power of the word "authentic" was revealed. I then thought to myself, "<em>Why does it take a confirmation from someone else to validate something you already know?</em>" This was a powerful question because I began to wonder, if I'm not being faithful and true to myself then who the heck am I giving it to and how do they get first dibs on my sentiment before I do? Authenticity, denied.<br /><br />Just as a random side note in this, I think that people confuse loyalty and authenticity. I don't ever see how denying the best of yourself for the sake of someone or something else is considered loyal, but I digress...or do I?<br /><br />I believe that a lot of the imbalance I've experienced lately has been a symptom of an inauthentic me. Every time I say something or do something outside of my truth, I can hear my inner voice saying, "<em>Why are you doing this again? Aren't you tired?</em>"<br /><br />Today I finally answered and said..."<em>Yes</em>"<br /><br />As each day is given to me in grace, I want to make sure that I exist in truth within every single moment. That truth for me is living in harmony, peace, prosperity and unbounded love. These are the elements that abide at my core. As "la la land" as it sounds, it's true. I'm not what or who many people think I am. Many may have an idea, but only a few know. Either way it goes, I cannot say enough how important it is that all of us find the space of truth in our lives. That place where you're allowed to feel just as you feel without limits or guilt. There is power in the truth and with the power of truth comes freedom.<br /><br />Feeling worn out, tired, hurt, ashamed, guilty, confused, defeated, unappreciated, sad, angry? Got truth? Hmph!GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-35598512362594690162009-03-04T22:05:00.002-05:002009-03-04T22:09:35.492-05:00Real Talk<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/3IIF9IAQSnU&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/3IIF9IAQSnU&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />I had to share this video of Jazmine Sullivan singing her song "In Love With Another Man". Everything about this video screams the truth from what the song is saying on to her performance. She did this very well!GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-69355900071921325702009-02-17T00:23:00.005-05:002009-03-04T22:05:32.514-05:00Do You Know?So it seems that these days, I'm only inspired to blog when I'm really happy or when I'm on the low side. There's rarely a motivation to do so when I'm in that space in between. Just an observation...
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<br />I had an epiphanic moment tonight that was such a goose bump type of self awareness. Another "Aha!" moment. I was talking to a friend about how amazing intuition is. That gut feeling that speaks to us, offering the answer, before you even raise the question. What makes it such a big deal is that for the first time in my life, I was able to recognize what it was. It came in a form that reminded me of a situation that left a bad taste in mouth, which has lingered for over two years. Another thing about how my intuition spoke to me tonight is that it used almost the same exact message it was using two years ago, but I ignored it. I thought that "gut" feeling was just the nervousness, negativity or fear in me trying to sabotage a situation. Tonight....I got it. I've gotta be honest though because it hurts. It feels like an old wound has been opened because I'm saying to myself now that there's something not working. There's something in there that just doesn't last long and I'm caught up in the middle of it. Of course, it always goes that the ones you don't want are the ones trying to fight to hang in there and the ones you want are fighting to get out of there. But...in the very rare occasion that I meet someone in a setting where our connection is on a mutual level, what is it in there that holds up the process? Then it has taken me to a place tonight to really examine who I am and the type of person that I am and I ask the question of "<em>What if?</em>". Yes....what if my life's story doesn't include a romantic relationship? I often say that it's going to take a very strong individual to be with a man like me, but just what if? What if my life's work has a broader and more selfless purpose? I mean, the questions are valid. The same way that some aren't able to have their own children, which opens the door for the children of others to be loved.
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<br />This is a mighty big pill to swallow coming off of Valentine's day weekend. It's amazing that we hear so many people with their own take on how you should look at it, how you should think about it or how it's going to be, but I believe that only <em>I</em> can call it as it is relative to me. However, in the midst of this ongoing mental/emotional storm, I am thankful for being able to recognize that inner voice of intuition. Yes...just being able to recognize it is a gift in itself. However, the unsettled dust of loose emotions and wild hurts still run unbridled through the corridors of my mind on to the abyss of my heart's strings. That place...deep inside. This rocks my core.
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/minime.swf?myid=18518781&path=2009/02/17" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="mycolor=E0DFB1&mycolor2=A5A36C&mycolor3=535233&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=0&grad=false" width="160" height="68" name="myflashfetish" salign="TL" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" style="visibility:visible;width:160px;height:68px;" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/18518781" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br /><a href="http://mixpod.com">Music Playlist</a> at <a href="http://mixpod.com">MixPod.com</a></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMzYyMjIxNzgwNjImcHQ9MTIzNjIyMjE4MDkyMCZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jmc9MSZ*PSZvPTc2YzA2NWU*YTM*NDRkZTVhNWU5ZDgyMTgyNzQ5Y2Fm.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-28302107554117985432009-02-09T22:06:00.004-05:002009-02-09T23:27:58.093-05:00Anyhow....Today was one of those days when I felt really restless. I got so caught up that it almost felt like I couldn't breath. This feeling stemmed from my hunger for change. You know, like you're so hungry for change, but because it's not here yet, you feel like you're being suffocated in the present circumstances. In so many ways, I realize how I'm changing as an individual. I remember when I used to pray to God all the time to enlarge my territory and literally as I prayed that prayer it was happening all around me, but in the particular realm that was best for the time. Over time, my territory has been automatically enlarged, but now I feel like I've hit a "dormant" season, so to speak. I feel like the enlargement has been held up momentarily and in this slowed phased, I've actually outgrown my own territory. To add to this hunger for change is this great sense of urgency like it has to happen soon or else. I guess that explains the suffocation that I feel, which is another a part of the anxiety within it all. The change for me is all about being elevated. I'm not talking about being elevated to the next level or even the next realm. I'm talking being elevated to the next dimension. The things that once worked, no longer do. The things that once were "okay" to me are no longer acceptable. Everyday I steadily grow increasingly despising of all of the elements that perpetuate this whole "business as usual" way of being and living, even the elements within me.<br /><br />So all of this was riled up in me today and then I was watching <em>The View</em> from this morning that I DVR'D. There was a segment with Diane Sawyer about a special that is scheduled to air on Friday about families living in a particular region on Kentucky. These are poor families. These families, from what I gather, are living in a poverty stricken area that has basically sealed them in isolation, not by roads but by mentality and spirit. Although I have yet to see the special in its entirety, I was immediately reminded of my hometown back in SC. As a matter of fact, I was just told today that my hometown has the highest unemployment rate in the state of South Carolina and as far as I could remember, it has always been this way and I grew up in that. Wow. Then I saw from the clip shown how this one little girl lived in a dwelling with 12 others and how to quench the baby's thirst, Pepsi was poured into his sippy cup. The first song that came to mind for me was "Still Good Anyhow". I immediately went to iTunes to download this song and I've had it on repeat and it's still on repeat right now as I make this entry.<br /><br />There's not a whole lot that I can even say after seeing that clip and hearing this song, but....You're still good anyhow. Although this feeling of overwhelming gratitude doesn't erase my hunger, it does have a soothing effect. I'm reminded that even in my situation as it stands, with all of these things that I feel are weighing me down, he's still good anyhow. It's not easy to be in the position of great need and waiting, whether it be a tangible or intangible request and be able to say to God, "<em>You're still good anyhow...even If I don't get an answer or the blessing....you're still good and I thank you.</em>"<br /><br />So with all of this said, the way I feel hasn't gone away, but a very bitter-sweet element has been thrown into the mix. It's bitter-sweet that even if the answer is "no", that doesn't cancel out all of the "Yeses".GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-42263964469264597862009-01-26T22:55:00.001-05:002009-02-09T22:06:19.170-05:00Bring It!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz2Vwi4HhGe91E_O7_7f403LUsbFHUFqg7wDjFVfQUBeGKK659GoAFF3sU0LHyu6MXKNE8Xt_iJc0IcU_GRxkcD8AkbGu9j2JFEWz0MFSBaVW8u9vwQesb_5xgdkf1lYNDhEzg_AlnG96M/s1600-h/3153873633_020dcb8a68medium.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 293px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz2Vwi4HhGe91E_O7_7f403LUsbFHUFqg7wDjFVfQUBeGKK659GoAFF3sU0LHyu6MXKNE8Xt_iJc0IcU_GRxkcD8AkbGu9j2JFEWz0MFSBaVW8u9vwQesb_5xgdkf1lYNDhEzg_AlnG96M/s320/3153873633_020dcb8a68medium.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5295817135290471698" /></a>
<br />My first post of the year 2009. Wow. I hope this post finds everyone who has ever shared in this blog with me alive and well. I've been holding off posting in this new year because I wanted to make sure now more than ever, it is a sincere reflection of me. A lot has happened with me externally and internally since my last post. Many things that I still don't have the full strength to talk about just yet, but I trust that with more growth, I'll be able to share the experiences and the gifts that they hold.
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<br />So, over the time of breaking from this blog, I thought everyday of what I wanted my life and everything that relates to it to be about this year. I thought about what I wanted this blog to represent. There's a lot that I've kept out of my blog to ensure that I didn't "reveal" too much of myself. Imagine that....and the blog is called "G R'vealed". This year, I want the revelations to be free flowing, but with the intent to connect, to inspire, to liberate, to comfort, for fun, for understanding and/or to just "be".
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<br />You know, growth is a beautiful thing. You receive so much of a greater awareness in growth. No. I haven't "arrived" just yet, but the awareness that I've been given for 2009 is out of this world. It's like someone has allowed me to peep their card. I'm finally at a point in my life where I feel like all of those "lost ones" that I've endured are now being overturned. I guess it can be described as one of the many "Aha!" moments. The understanding, wisdom and guidance that I am divinely meant to have at this very moment, I feel like, I get it now! I finally get it! The "it" is the embrace of truth and all that's in it. Need I even say more?
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<br />As basic as this blog is, I hope that everyone who reads it will embrace the truth in and of their lives. I learned in a very tough way that "it is what it is". It's time to start calling a spade a spade. This year I'm taking the liberty to be more true to myself. To ONLY do the things that I truly want to do where it's possible. To speak up for myself more and consistently remain true to my belief system. It feels so good to realize that it's truly okay to be me. I'm courageous in standing firm that no matter who or what comes and goes, I've gotta take care of me.
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<br />So speaking to those defeats, hurts, misunderstandings and mishaps, you won some, but you JUST lost one. I want to live....
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This time when "it all" comes back, it comes with reinforcement, holding banners that silently scream, <em>"You WILL deal with this!"</em>. Damn! I thought I dodged a bullet that time.<br /><br />So that then brings me back here with the same music, but different lyrics.<br /><br />So Thanksgiving is in 3 days and I had so "planned" to make a nice sweet post for Thanksgiving and wishing well. Bad news. I caught myself about to commit a fraud. That's not how I feel. That's not my truth. Yes, I carry, daily, a high level of gratefulness for all that is, but that's not where the spotlight is within my life. I love the fall/winter and even the "thought" of the holidays, but this also proves to be a very challenging time for me. I don't need to go into why. I'll let you draw your own conclusions.<br /><br />Have you ever been in the midst of things or a time that was "alright" and was <em>not alright</em>? Ever been lonely in the midst of a crowded room full of family and friends? Have you ever laughed, but knew that you were crying on the inside? I'm speaking of that state where you truly don't know what to do with yourself. You look around and everyone else is jolly, laughing, happy......or not....could be the same as you, but as far as you know, they have that thing that you can't seem to hold on to. You then ask the questions, "<em>What's wrong with me? What's really happening? What is this about? Is this about me? Or is this really about him?</em>"<br /><br />So I'll go home this week, looking, acting and speaking as polished as I always do. I'll speak positively and encouragingly to all that I talk to and they'll say, "<em>You look so good. How have you been?</em>" and I'll say "<em>Thank you. So do you. I've been great!</em>" I'll go through this same exchange with close family members. How fake is that? But...I'll do it.<br /><br />Hmph. If only they knew. So I'll play this song for the rest of the week while in Atlanta, on my drive across state lines to South Carolina up until I arrive at my destination. Once I arrive and get out of the car though, it's showtime! Eh Mary....sometimes.....sometimes invisibility <em>would</em> be great.<br /><br /><br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-stick.swf?myid=15453440&path=2008/11/24" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="mycolor=828A5E&mycolor2=BDB95B&mycolor3=827331&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=1&grad=false" width="219" height="35" name="myflashfetish" salign="TL" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" style="visibility:visible;width:219px;height:35px;"></embed><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/15453440" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br /><a href="http://mixpod.com">Music Playlist</a> at <a href="http://mixpod.com">MixPod.com</a></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMzE2NDg5MjkyOTQmcHQ9MTIzMTY*ODkzMjI5MCZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jmc9MSZ*PSZvPTc2YzA2NWU*YTM*NDRkZTVhNWU5ZDgyMTgyNzQ5Y2Fm.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-58668662989344678952008-11-17T22:51:00.005-05:002008-11-24T22:21:20.983-05:00The Breath of Hope..Wow! I made my return to the blog world a lot sooner than I thought I would.
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<br />In my absence, boy has my life changed! No. Nothing drastic has happened, but I've had so many internal changes and I've grown so much. I think that's what I was trying to get out in a few of my previous posts, but couldn't because a lot of things were under-developed, as many things with me are <em>still</em> under-developed...meaning that I can't articulate them just yet. That brings me to this song that's playing.
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<br />It's amazing how songs can do things that a regular conversation can't do for and to you. I feel like I have been pulled in a thousand different places with trying to keep up in school, completing this internship, figuring out what I'm going to do about grad/law school, trying to release CoCoTwists from my system and.......being single, living here alone. In conjunction to everything I just mentioned, the holidays are coming and no matter how optimistic I try to be, Thanksgiving is next week and then Christmas and so on. I think it's safe to go ahead and start planning how "I" can make the best of "my" holiday season. So where does this song come in?
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<br />I was standing in the mirror in my bathroom tonight and for some reason I started the music that's stored in my cell phone and randomly selected a song from the play list to start the shuffle.
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<br /><em>"Everyone falls in love sometimes, sometimes it's wrong and sometimes it's right. For every win, someone must fail, but there comes a point when, when we exhale...."</em>
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<br />That opening verse, immediately caught me. For the next 2-3 minutes, I stood over the sink, squinting my eyes a bit..with a soft smile...looking directly into my eyes.
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<br />It was as if I could hear the inner most part of my spirit speaking to me and asking the question, <em>"With all of this that is before you, that lays on you...at this point, what can you do?"</em>
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<br />Then Whitney...
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<br /><em>"All you gotta do is say...shoop shoop shoop shoo be doo shoop shoop"</em>
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<br />Seems like the movie, I know, but I simply exhaled and felt a level of contentment. It wasn't a feeling of happiness or sadness to be exact, but almost like a place of surrender. Then the message didn't stop there....
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<br /><em>"In your soul there's answers to your prayers, if you're searching for a place you know, a familiar face, somewhere to go...you should look inside yourself..you're half way there.."</em>
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<br />By this time, my smile to myself had gone from soft to tender. I wasn't saying to myself, <em>"Now, you're all better."</em>, but it's like I was saying to myself, <em>"Even where you are right now, even with how you feel...it's alright. Feel those feelings, think those thoughts, cry those tears, laugh those laughs, embrace those hugs, pray those prayers and linger and love harder.</em>
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<br />I believe that we all will have periods in our lives that aren't necessarily bad, but periods when we're just going through the motions, dying for an anchor of meaning to embrace us and keep us. The only way I know how to get through these periods is by simply riding the waves and although it's not easy, I kinda feel good about it. I just believe that on the other side, in the calmer waters...there's something that I'm sure I'll be all the better for and oh how sweet it's gonna be.
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<br />I end this post with this "exhale inducing" piece from the song:
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<br /><em>"Sometimes you'll laugh and sometimes you'll cry, life NEVER tells us the whens or whys..."</em>
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<br />See you in a little while.
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-stick.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=14981762&path=2008/11/10&mycolor=111111&mycolor2=99CCCC&mycolor3=FFFFFF&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=11&grad=false" width="219" height="35" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" style="visibility:visible;width:219px;height:35px;" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/14981762" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br /><a href="http://mixpod.com">Music Playlist</a> at <a href="http://mixpod.com">MixPod.com</a></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMjY5ODAzODg2ODQmcHQ9MTIyNjk4MDM5MjQ1OSZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jmc9MSZ*PSZvPTc2YzA2NWU*YTM*NDRkZTVhNWU5ZDgyMTgyNzQ5Y2Fm.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-86079654145212856772008-10-02T01:22:00.003-04:002008-11-10T17:54:42.647-05:00In The Meantime...I really wanted to make a post but I can't articulate what I want to say. Music is the only place where conversation is free flowing for me so I'll just let this song serve the purpose.
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-circle.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=13537528&path=2008/10/02&mycolor=AB897B&mycolor2=CCCCCC&mycolor3=665C52&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=0&grad=false" width="110" height="110" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" style="visibility:visible;width:110px;height:110px;" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/13537528" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br /><a href="http://mixpod.com">Music Playlist</a> at <a href="http://mixpod.com">MixPod.com</a></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.4NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMjYzNTc2MDQ2OTYmcHQ9MTIyNjM1NzYwNzU5NyZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jmc9MSZ*PSZvPTc2YzA2NWU*YTM*NDRkZTVhNWU5ZDgyMTgyNzQ5Y2Fm.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-58957105023137246172008-09-20T16:52:00.008-04:002008-10-01T23:45:52.583-04:00Tender SaturdayWhat a wonderful Saturday. It is one of those days in Atlanta that reminds me that there is no other place on earth I'd rather be. Today I am reminded of how much prayer can change things. It would be remiss if I didn't acknowledge the fact that last weekend this time, I was not feeling the way I feel right now. I continued to pray and I must say that the father answered. Not necessarily by changing the situations but by lifting me on the inside. I've been raised above it all. I've got to continue praying, of course, to keep myself lifted.
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<br />Something else that has also caused a lift is the fact that the person that I've blogged about many times before has recently been sorta present in my life. You know the one I'm talking about....my "Mr. Big". We'll call him CocoTwists. Well I can't really elaborate on much right now but last night I had the opportunity to bring his birthday in with him. It was such a wonderful evening. I am still misty from the experience. So that explains the music and about 49% of my lifted mood. I'm trying not to let my already rising emotions get too high. I mean, he's not new to me but somehow, something seems different this time. We'll see. I am so full, almost to the point to where I can't catch my breath. Oh well, I'll be raptured off for the rest of the day.
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<br />Hope you're having a good one.
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/myflashfetish-mp3-player.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=13094758&path=2008/09/20&mycolor=080B0D&mycolor2=FFDE05&mycolor3=FFDE05&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=14&grad=true" width="218" height="155" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/13094758" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br /><a href="http://mixpod.com">Music Playlist</a> at <a href="http://mixpod.com">MixPod.com</a></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.4NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMjI5MTkwODgwMzEmcHQ9MTIyMjkxOTA5MDUwMCZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jm49Jmc9MSZ*PSZvPTIyN2FkNmM5MmNiNDQ4NTVhNGEyZGJhNTUyZDk3NGQz.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-58123155717649541082008-09-14T21:28:00.003-04:002008-09-14T22:10:05.342-04:00Sunday InspirationI didn't attend church services today but I've still gotten my dose of inspiration. The video below is the source of that inspiration. The song "Peace Be Still". Just the title alone is profound enough. I want to thank all of you for visiting my blog and giving me feedback even in some of my darkest posts. I know that I haven't posted much on anyone <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">else's</span> blog lately and I do beg your forgiveness for it. However, I have been using this blog as more of a personal journal for my reflections. This is my birthday month and every year around this time I go through the growing pains of a changing season. That's what my birthdays represent to me, a change of seasons. My recent posts have spoken to that fact.<br /><br />Once again, thank you for even taking the time to check me out and in this seasonal change, I hope that I can maybe reach someone else who may be in that place in their life. If you don't know what I'm talking about or what <em>this </em>is all about, keep on living.<br /><br />I hope you would take the time to check out the video with Vanessa ministering in this song "Peace Be Still".<br /><br />Song highlights for me:<br /><br />"<em>Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea, or demons, or men or whatever it be...no water can swallow the ship where lies the master of ocean, and earth and skies. They ALL shall so sweetly obey thy will.</em>"<br /><br />My inspiration comes from knowing that when I, you, we go down in honest prayer, we can get up with a reassurance that he's going to be who he is. I'm talking about just knowing that no matter how we feel, everything has to obey HIS will. No matter how big or how small. Let's not fool ourselves, when the storms rage, it takes more than cute words to really pull you through but I'm talking about when you get in a situation where there isn't anyone else to depend on but him and what he said. That's when the rubber meets the road. I don't care what I've done or what I've said, I know who keeps my foundation in tact.<br /><br />So, I hope you all have a blessed week and no matter what may come up or has come up this week, let's believe together that he can "turn it around."<br /><br />Vanessa Bell-Armstrong- Peace Be Still<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RAbxsMwHyYc&hl=en&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RAbxsMwHyYc&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-68095230813685451702008-09-09T17:26:00.007-04:002008-09-14T22:11:54.071-04:00SeekingToday's post is mostly like a personal journal entry for me. It's one of those days for me. I got in from my second day as an intern about an hour ago and boy am I tired. No this internship is not in the legal field but it is valuable experience to be added to my resume. Oh and it's unpaid. This is my first time ever working without being paid and I must say that it is so weird. So what's the point of this post? Basically people, today is one of my weary days.
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<br />I look around at my life and yes I'm almost finished with this degree and yes my grades are good and yes I was blessed to get an internship of some sort but..I'm tired. I'm beginning to get back to my more spiritual/divine approach to things now where I find myself talking to God more than ever these days. So therefore in my current situation I've been talking to God and trying to look beyond what it looks like because I know that he has the power to stand in the gaps and turn things around. So this isn't meant to be a long post but it's something that I wanted to put in the atmosphere.I am in a tight place in my life. It's that place that's in between where I used to be and where I'm going. What makes it so critical is that I've fallen tired in the midst of my tight place. So as a more personal blog today, I send this posting and the song up as another form of expression to my creator..knowing where MY help is coming from. Goodness knows I'm needing him right now.
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<br />Anyway...I wanted to blog tonight but had no clue of what to talk about. I mean, I'm not at all out of <em>something</em> that I can talk about. This heart and mind of mine is so full on wonders and sweet mistiness. I mean, what can I say? I'm such a "lovely" guy...in the sense of being love and affection inspired. In the past I haven't embraced this characteristic of myself proudly but now I do. It's apart of me and I love it. Being able to listen to love music and pull meaning and feeling out of it and not have a soul to love...are you kidding me? It's heaven. Sometimes.....and at times it is so intoxicating that I almost buckle from all of the unshared emotions, which says to me that all this love needs to be given.
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<br />Another thing that I've been coming to grips with lately is the fact that I'm still in love with my....I guess you can say "ex". He's no longer in my life in that way so I guess he is an ex. You know, this very thing that has caused me a lot of depression and wondering why I still thought about him and pleading with my heart to let him go has become something different for me. My reason is because I understand what he and that situation meant to me. This man stood in the gaps of many places in my life. Although his time in my life was brief, for that moment in time, he was mine. I'm not ashamed to admit that this man made me better. Bump all of the "Well you need to be this or that alone first and theeeeen..." Bolony! And I'm speaking for my OWN life, I can't imagine not having a "need" or being a fulfillment of a need for the love of my life. As human beings, love is key. I now understand why, in my continued single season, my heart won't loose its grasp on him. It simply won't until the next "love" comes along that's equal to or greater than what is currently in its fisted glove. And...I've gotta say...that I'm ok with that. I can't say that I'm in his thoughts or that he isn't giving the love that I wanted to someone else at this very moment but I can say that the purpose he served in life really raised the standard. To know what it looks like and what it feels like......and just to know that I didn't even make it to the deep end. I can only imagine what that end holds for me.
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<br />Umm....that's all.
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<br />I'm such a love bug...
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<br />A big part of that is true but the last situation, which was over a year ago, released me by circumstance....for whatever reason "he" didn't want it anymore. Now I find myself looking at the many people who have tried with boredom. I've met some really good people but they just didn't have that thing...the "it" factor. I've gotta be honest, I don't think my heart will "move" again until I meet someone who is the equivalent or better than "him". Until then, this song will prove to be my "explanation" of why I'm still single.
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<br />I know this song is heavy and on the low side but I'm OWNING my emotions.
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<br />"<em>But when I'm with him...ain't nobody else like it</em>..."
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<br />Have you ever been there? Are you there?
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<br />Real talk..
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<br /><div>I'm sure many of you have already heard this new tune that's playing. It's the new single from Monica titled "Still Standing". Words can't even describe how much I'm living in this song right now. I've wanted to get my hands on it since it was featured on her show that aired here in Atlanta. It's like this song could not have been made available to me at a better time. I know that I've been posting back to back with those last posts but the truth of the matter is that I'm really full. I'm full, full, full. In between yesterday and today, I've felt myself being lessened from fullness and in humbleness. Even as I type this, this song just embodies what I'm feeling at the moment as I yet continue to push.
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<br />"See this is more than just a song to me.." sums it up...
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<br />Great record here though.
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<br />I'm a person who talks to himself. No..I really talk to myself as if I'm having a conversation with another individual. In many ways it is very therapeutic for me because instead of my thoughts being bounce around from one corner of my mind to the next, it allows me to actually hear what's going on with me <em>from</em> me. Anyway, my cousin and I were having the conversation about knowing who we are and being who we are. Now, I've had this conversation with myself many times and I think that I have done a good job paying close attention to myself and learning more about myself as I forever grow and evolve. The thing though, and I am speaking from my perspective, I think that many forget to remember themselves after awhile. After we've chanted the mantra "Take Me As I Am!" and sung the song and lived in it and stood in it..somehow that day when we stopped chanting it for what was only supposed to be 10 min, retired the song for a day, removed our life from it for a moment or stepped out of it just for that one second, it somehow slipped to the back of the shelf as things constantly came in. I know that this is something that I truly happened to me. I forgot to remember myself. That phone conversation brought it all back home and I was just like.."<em>Wow..I actually forgot to myself</em>." The good thing is that now I'm on the road to get it back on track.
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<br />After my last post, I really began to analyze what I posted and the way that I see things. At first I said to myself, "<em>Maybe you shouldn't have made such a post. It didn't reflect the very best of you</em>." I thought about it some more and then it came to me as clear as a bell. That was ME. That was my venting session. That was what I was feeling at the time and to an extent still feel. Then the realization of why I felt this way came forth. The way that I express myself, the way that I see the world has all been shaped and molded from the way that I was raised and the environment in which I was raised. My cousin and I say all the time how hard it is to remove the negative residue of where you come from, especially when that residue comes in the form of family members. That's not exactly something that you can rid yourself of such as the tossing of a piece of paper. I always knew on some level subconsciously that these things factored into why I am the way I am now but never took the time to truly own it. I look at individuals whom I've encountered who grew up in very different places, around very different type people and I notice how we differ. We may have the same overall goals in common but the elements of the journey towards those goals are where we differ the most. We are just different people from different elements and I respect that.
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<br />This past weekend I was with a few friends having an enjoyable time chit-chatting. They all had their drinks and I had my signature non-alcoholic beverage. It's always so funny to me because they always tease me about not drinking and I tease back about peer-pressure. One guy at the table who was sitting next to me and whom I did not know got into a little side discussion with me about why I don't drink and for the first time I actually elaborated to him all of why I'm not a drinker. I basically explained that aside from me not having the taste for it, I grew up around a lot of excessive drinking and I never personally felt like it was a habit that I wanted to adopt so I held true to that standard for myself. He said..."Oh ok. I understand." And it felt good because I owned it. That example immediately came to me as my cousin and I were talking today.
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<br />The moral of this post is this, today is a day that I remember to remember myself and all of who I am as a person. I own it all today and it feels good because I'm truly at a point in my life where I can take it or leave it and that is also my style in my offerings of "me" to others. I've gotta be honest, I love the hell out of being who I have become, being who I am and who I'm becoming. It took so much prayer, trials, growth and work to get to where I am right now with myself. That's why I was so passionate in my last post with all the venting because anything that I perceive as a threat to my destiny and my full potential is no good and it has to be removed from my system. I am such a blessed young man and I love life but when I make such heavy posts, it is not to wallow in sorrow and mess but it's just me telling my story from the position in which I stand in the world. Stories change, characters change, seasons change. I'm opening myself up for this next change. I respect myself and I accept myself as well as I respect others but I ONLY accept others up until the point where it affects me negatively in any way. You know why? Because I've got that right!
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<br />Happy Monday! Do you!
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<br />Have you ever been at a point in your life where everything within you is calling for change? I'm not talking about just getting to the next level but getting to the next dimension of levels. A place where you are fed up with everyday issues that have seemingly placed their gears in "Park" right over your life? Let's be real, not all of these issues are caused by others. Many of these issues are from our own foolishness and self-inflicted. I woke up this morning tired. I mean really tired of the routine. Somethin' somewhere is gon' have to give.
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<br />When I think about my life and where I feel like I have yet to go, it gets really exciting for me. All it takes is a thought and I can rise to cloud 9. However, lately things haven't been so cut and dry. It feels like there has been obstruction and impediments left and right in my life. I can't sit here and blame it all on other people although there have been contributions of the such by others. I blame 90 to 95% of this current imbalance on myself for allowing the foolishness to come in on me. Somethin' has to go...somethin's gotta give.
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<br />Even as I type this post, I can feel the tightness and heaviness of this matter. I'm just going to put it out there. I have enough to worry about in my own life. I can no longer carry other people's mess with me. I know this has probably been preached in a previous post but somethin's truly gonna have to give. I can no longer handle being a part of draining things and people. All of these things that don't leave me feeling empowered have to go. All of these people that don't leave me feeling like a better person when we depart, have to go.
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<br />Where is this all coming from? This was a long time coming. My cup was already full and just sitting under the faucet. The drop the caused the overflow came through the form of a text message from a selfish person trying to drain me of my power before I even opened my eyes from my own sleep. I'm sitting here stressin' to pass these classes and finish school, stressin' to find a job, trying to get myself together for the bigger pictures of life so I can actually get something out it and here comes someone draining me of the energy God gave me overnight to deal another day.
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<br />Maybe this is selfish of me to post but oh well! I'll end with this. I've grown into a person who realizes how serious life truly is. Yes, it's good to enjoy it and live everyday as your last, enjoying all the simple things as well as the big things but don't fool yourself. There has to come a time when you grow up and truly fight to gain that balance to promote that healthy living. It's easy to minimize the issues of life when the storm cloud isn't over your house but this is for those of us who are truly in the upward battle for a better place in life. Keep pushin' and we'll get there. Prayer is a powerful thing!
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<br />I'm just sayin'...somethin's gonna have to give!
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<br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvOBejKGW8zWQ7R-a5VO0ej_Jxck_XOxjgxcx_QYo-_r-YqsHocIp_M9U4WxUOcQ8WHLQkg35fmMKAtr1zGr_TY2vXCxaK09fLqPqs7dRsiWjkpiw1AS4q5HXItVCyLmMEdjO3YmcnWaPm/s1600-h/DC18_front_backW.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230891167363177490" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvOBejKGW8zWQ7R-a5VO0ej_Jxck_XOxjgxcx_QYo-_r-YqsHocIp_M9U4WxUOcQ8WHLQkg35fmMKAtr1zGr_TY2vXCxaK09fLqPqs7dRsiWjkpiw1AS4q5HXItVCyLmMEdjO3YmcnWaPm/s320/DC18_front_backW.jpg" border="0" /> <p align="center"></a>DC18 Dyson Slim Retail Price: $469
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<br />Yes! I would not stop until I had one of these vacuums in my possession. Since I've had it, it's been a field day on my carpet. I love it. It works wonders. Even if I vacuum everyday, it always seems to pick up something new. Who knew that carpet held so much....stuff? I'll admit, this machine is a little pricey and it's kinda small but Dyson really delivered on their promise with this one. I'd highly recommend it. </p><div align="center">
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<br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxiLVTT06pN0HKpHhkoDEK7M4TPYZLuepzTyLlZ3fLTVGEjFFhwNZJ-7FYnKqqvrD46JzjW7kBATpo1Jyf6eynz1HAShbYWofuEUPdmCVvNJ2sugxObDoEPmdhaA8j5sHTxc0yloeEQOlf/s1600-h/verizon-lg-voyager.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230891693014763058" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxiLVTT06pN0HKpHhkoDEK7M4TPYZLuepzTyLlZ3fLTVGEjFFhwNZJ-7FYnKqqvrD46JzjW7kBATpo1Jyf6eynz1HAShbYWofuEUPdmCVvNJ2sugxObDoEPmdhaA8j5sHTxc0yloeEQOlf/s320/verizon-lg-voyager.jpg" border="0" /> <p align="center"></a>LG Voyager Retail price (directly from LG): $409 </p><p></p><p align="center">This is my new phone that I am so in love with. It is offered through the Verizon Wireless network. Of course, its price is a lot cheaper going through Verizon Wireless so that $409.00 even surprised me that LG is actually trying to sell it directly for that, but oh well. When I chose this phone, I was so overdue for a new phone and I got tired of everyone else having the funky phones and me have something that was so....2006ish. So I wanted something that had the likeness of an iPhone but on the Verizon network and this fit the bill. I text a lot so being able to have my touch screen on the exterior and flip it open to do my texting gave me the best of both worlds. Love, love love this phone!</p><p align="center"></p><p align="left"></p><p></p>
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<br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230869121814750674" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgM-CFYhxYsNanUoiwkNJz8WaVtNMJtAFDjsotoGOhPiiO-kUtO-52VssfWtqZVvuAmAqHW8QoOEgryWArswC7U78hsVuJk_wbMtmGVguxwVRGwVhPrXQwWFZZvkT6_iX7bh33Bl70BSNSf/s320/0.jpg" border="0" /> <p align="center">Tiffany 1837 Tag Pendant Retail Price: $ 250 </p><p align="center">This necklace has been a part of my "wantings" lately. I really look forward to putting this around my neck. In addition to it being a Tiffany & Co. piece of course, I think this item is simple, clean and neutral and at the same time classy for a guy. I think it's going to achieve that look that I like when I wear certain necklaces.....you know...giving my neck that dainty look. LOL Don't hate! </p><p align="center">
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<br /></p><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230873334765144258" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjazHfXpL-TdmeV4zSNwvEHBACGkS_La-TuauAft4ddsHXeyFkMpSoyrcJOBAD3IFwBj26rVjzAkr82-_0YWwRlmtw3YcRAX-y48xVBACEn3f5z8Kp8GcvXQdzRqPUw5TGPLh0rEvr0b6dY/s320/2008031002494211833.jpg" border="0" /></p><p align="center">Tiffany 1837 I.D. Bracelet Retail Price: $475 </p><p align="center">Wouldn't it just be lovely to pair this bracelet with that necklace? I mean, what can I say? I want it! This is another neutral piece in my opinion. I can see this being one of those everyday items and not to mention making my wrist look...come on...say it with me....."dainty". LOL</p><p align="center">
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<br /><p align="center">Mark Nason Cowboy Boots Retail Price: $385</p><p align="center">These boots just scream my name! Pair these with some fancy jeans and you've got yourself a "get-up". I haven't seen many boots with the likeness of these boots in the past couple years that I've been into like that but these boots speak to me. I'd just hope that they have a narrow cut to them because I don't do bulky.</p><p align="center"></p><p align="center"></p>
<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg60KT_B40fxuCIaAypGuucVl4JDn_J472lAgmkCc1r4SciQ4-4ZDH_QvC3e3AL_Qc063Z8oACJ18bQrrEy61dX3vP3eRvrE6CsbpljQFCKCdWTIFrbFrbeJCJNpH42slbB-ADYdbCFvni1/s1600-h/bmw-3series-coupe.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230882549900513058" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg60KT_B40fxuCIaAypGuucVl4JDn_J472lAgmkCc1r4SciQ4-4ZDH_QvC3e3AL_Qc063Z8oACJ18bQrrEy61dX3vP3eRvrE6CsbpljQFCKCdWTIFrbFrbeJCJNpH42slbB-ADYdbCFvni1/s320/bmw-3series-coupe.jpg" border="0" /></a> <p align="center">BMW 335xi Coupe MSRP: $43,000</p><p align="center">I've been admiring this car for awhile now and I would so love to go into the fall/winter in this vehicle. This is a BAD car. That MSRP makes the car seem more obtainable but you wouldn't easily find a 335xi at that price. By the time options and packages are added, nothing less than $50k is expected. Umm...I can smell that new leather now! (Speaking it into existence!)</p><p align="center">That's all folks!
<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-pill.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=11512401&path=2008/08/04&mycolor=C0FF14&mycolor2=181940&mycolor3=8A4D7E&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=0&grad=false" width="265" height="110" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/11512401" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMTgzOTU5OTQ1OTMmcHQ9MTIxODM5NTk5NzY4NyZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jm49Jmc9MQ==.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-31264862672754030072008-07-19T23:59:00.007-04:002008-08-04T22:53:29.209-04:00Love vs BarsSo it's a Saturday night and I'm at home listening to good music and not mad about that at all. I've always been hugely into music since I can remember. It's like I do more than just hear it and understand it but I truly feel like I'm able to go to whatever realm the feeling of the song is giving. So, I'm sitting here listening to one of my favorite ladies, Faith Evans and going down memory lane from her first album up until present. One song that I absolutely love is the song that's playing "<em>Do Your Time</em>". I remember my friend Africa and I used to be all over that <em>Faithfully</em> cd and THIS song. We would be on our 45 minute to an hour journey to the nearest mall singing our hearts out like we truly had some locked up husbands somewhere! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">lol</span> Hilarious! Those were the days...
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<br />Anyway, I'm thinking about the words of this song, "<em>I'm gonna do your time with you no matter what I gotta do..</em>" When I sing those words, I honestly can feel the sentiment within each phrase and can almost put myself in that situation but the question comes to mind, could I really do <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">some one's</span> time with them? I'd like to say that I could but I already know that my answer would be based depending on the details of their incarceration. For instance, if it had anything to do with a sex crime such as child molestation or some type sexual abuse, then I just know that I couldn't. The length of their term also plays a part in there. So I ask myself, under what conditions would I stick beside someone through an ordeal such as <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">imprisonment</span>? This is also, of course, on the assumption that this is someone whom I've been with for an extended period of time (1+years) and we've truly built something substantial together.
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<br />Then my mind goes to Michael Vick, as it always does for some reason when I hear this song. In his case, would I had done all his time with him?
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<br />Heck, let me ask you. Could you, would you do <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">some one's</span> time with them? Is it fair to you to do <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">some one's</span> time with them? Why? Why not? Ultimately, do you think that love could truly be stronger that those bars?
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/myflashfetish-mp3-player.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=11064642&path=2008/07/19&mycolor=4A293C&mycolor2=21141D&mycolor3=030C0D&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=11&grad=true" width="218" height="155" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/11064642" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEyMTc5MDQ3ODIzNTkmcHQ9MTIxNzkwNDc4NDM*MyZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jm49Jmc9MQ==.gif" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-86826605935205114902008-07-13T20:28:00.004-04:002008-07-19T22:31:55.739-04:00What Do I know?You know, I had something else posted up previously but this song came through my shuffle and warranted the deletion of that post.
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<br />There are many things that are on my mind at this point because there is so much at stake in my life. There is so much work that truly has to be done....and in the midst of all my frustration with all these things, this song came through to be my comfort and inspiration for this Sunday.
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<br />So in all aspects of my life from spirituality to career to love...what do I really know? hmph...this song is right on time today.
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<br />"One of these 'ole days, I'm gonna have JUST what I want..."
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<br />Have a good Sunday and a wonderful week...
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-stick.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=10898320&path=2008/07/13&mycolor=111111&mycolor2=99CCCC&mycolor3=FFFFFF&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=9&grad=false" width="219" height="35" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/10898320" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/CIMP/bT*xJmx*PTEyMTY1MjA5OTQzMTImcHQ9MTIxNjUyMTAwMTAwMCZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jm49Jmc9MQ==.jpg" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-63382167158616296582008-06-30T23:58:00.004-04:002008-07-13T18:49:08.016-04:00It Can Happen for YouI just finished looking at an <a href="http://www2.oprah.com/index.jhtml">Oprah Show </a>recording that aired on Friday. It was a show continuing the concept of the law of attraction. We all heard about this concept during the time when <a href="http://www.thesecret.tv/"><em>The Secret</em> </a>was at its height in publicity and popularity. I tried this concept briefly during that time but did not hold out with it-I think because I went into it on the wrong level. However, after watching this show, I am ready to practice the law of attraction in my life once again.
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<br />The law of attraction basically says that whatever you constantly think, feel and speak will manifest in your life. We've even heard of this biblically with Proverbs 23:7 "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he." Proverbs 18:21 "Death and life are in the power of the tongue.."- So these concepts should not be new to us and are not separated from spirituality.
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<br />The last time I tried this, it was not easy....trying to replace negative thoughts with positive thoughts, the self-affirmations, etc-<em>none</em> were easy. I realize why. Everytime I tried to come with something positive, it was the subconscious "self" resisting that new way of thinking because I have thought and felt a certain way for so long. The funny thing about it is, I've used this concept in the past and gotten positive results without even knowing it. Many of the things that I truly wanted for myself, I've thought about it and released into the atmosphere intensely and they came to pass and I don't believe these things happened by default because of the resources that I'm indirectly connected to but I believe they came through me putting it out there passionately "without doubt" that <em>this</em> is what I want. It didn't even register to me during those times. I also think about my father who we call a "no limit soldier" because he NEVER stops. He is <em>always</em> speaking about getting to the next level and ever since I've known myself, he's been this way. I don't care what's going on, he always has a comeback for why he has to keep going and what's going to come for him and I have to say that it is all coming 10-fold. This was a man who used to walk around with paint-stained clothing, looking a "working" mess who everyone talked about-my grandmother, aunts, uncles, friends of the family, etc. but he ALWAYS said..."<em>I'm gonna get there. You just watch and see. One of these days I'm gonna get to the promised land.</em>" I include my mother in on this as well because certainly they both had a shared vision, he was just more vocal about it but now from their strong beliefs...they ARE the lenders and not the borrowers.
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<br />I'm telling you folks. I truly believe that there is power behind this thing. I am also about to create a vision board. A vision board is a board containing images of the visions that you see for your life-whether it be love, life, spirituality, career, etc.- with a spirit of gratitude for it being "already done" you release it and <em>watch God work. </em>As I said, I believe that it is all tied spiritually anyway. The key to it all though is making sure that you keep your thoughts and words positive and living in gratitude for how it is right now because you know that it's all coming together.
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<br />Well...I'm going to put my best foot forward and do it and this will be something that I look forward to sharing as these things start happening. I'm excited!
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<br /> <center><p style="visibility:visible;"><embed src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/swf/mp3/mff-pill.swf" quality="high" wmode="transparent" flashvars="myid=10601449&path=2008/06/30&mycolor=00A8C6&mycolor2=40C0CB&mycolor3=F9F2E7&autoplay=false&rand=0&f=4&vol=100&pat=0" width="265" height="110" name="myflashfetish" align="middle"type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" border="0" /><br><a href="http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/10601449" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/get-tracks.gif" title="Get Music Tracks!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Music"></a><a href="http://www.mixpod.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://assets.myflashfetish.com/images/make-own.gif" title="Create A Playlist!" style="border-style:none;" alt="Playlist"></a><br></p></center><img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/CIMP/bT*xJmx*PTEyMTU5ODkzMDYwMTUmcHQ9MTIxNTk4OTMwNzcxOCZwPTE4MDMxJmQ9Jm49Jmc9MQ==.jpg" />GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-48101460979633056482008-06-28T01:07:00.003-04:002008-06-28T02:25:22.073-04:00But in the meantime..Yes...it's 1:09am and I'm feeling it...<br /><br />mmmm....<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/j6Jv2kQuf4s&hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/j6Jv2kQuf4s&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-38594149690183132732008-06-24T18:55:00.003-04:002008-06-24T19:02:56.918-04:00An Unexpected Lifting..Ok guys, I know this is not a "Sunday Inspiration" post such as my last but I just HAD to post this video. I was just browsing around on youtube and came across this video of Tamela Mann singing the song "Step Aside" and....something just came over me. I don't know....maybe the lifting was only meant for me but I just HAD to post this! My Goodness....this <em>has</em> to be for somebody else too. When I tell you a good relieving but joyful cry? Didn't expect this lifting at 7pm today nor did I think I needed it but I got it.<br /><br />Watch it in its entirety...<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/yaG-2z1M-dc&hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/yaG-2z1M-dc&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2992151750564034289.post-1496834037915044692008-06-15T14:22:00.005-04:002008-06-15T15:20:04.596-04:00Sunday InspirationI first want to say Happy Father's Day to all the fathers all over the world...the good ones and the not so good ones. I called my father this morning to send my well wishes to him this morning and realized after the conversation that it was a blessing to be able to dial a number and have him pick up. I tried to call my brother and send my well wishes but it was to no avail, as usual, lol But I still love him anyway.<br /><br />I chose not to attend church services today. It wasn't because I didn't feel like it but more so I was really not in the mood for a "father's day" type sermon. The last father's day service I attended the pastor went from Rev. (Last Name) to Rev. Testosterone. So I'll maybe catch next Sunday.<br /><br />Donald Lawrence- It's Your Time<br />Pt. 1<br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/wuOcIigwVhs&hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/wuOcIigwVhs&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />I had a very epiphanic conversation with a friend last night. We were talking about love & life and the mentioning of two situations surfaced and he said to me, "<em>My life is good right now and I don't think I need to concern myself with THAT past. This is the first time in a while that I've been really happy and not just faking it</em>." This caught me off guard because I knew that he had been missing in action for the past few months but to come back in such a strong way really had a profound effect on me. I responded with "<em>That is so good and I am so happy for you. My time is coming to be happy</em>." Then after that statement I immediately started thinking about the conversations that I'd had with at least two other people earlier in the day that all ended with them saying "<em>yeah, my time is coming</em>.."- all referring to different things. Then my thoughts shifted to myself and the song embedded, "It's Your Time". It's almost as if I could hear a voice saying "It's your time...<em>now</em>!" and I truly felt it and I'm beginning to take ownership of the feeling. My time to be happy is now. As said in the song, I can truly feel myself getting ready to walk into the best season of my life. I feel like I'm in the beginning of that now but it is taking some repositioning before the light turns green.<br /><br />So I hope this is inspiring to one of you as well. How many of you are waiting to go to the next level? Waiting to go back to school, waiting to pursue entrepreneurship,waiting to do that one thing differently, waiting to leave that dead-end job, waiting to stop taking those calls, waiting to stop entertaining foolishness, waiting to GROW UP, waiting to be that person you truly desire to be? Life and death shoots into the atmosphere from the tongue and I speak life into my situations and your situations and say "It's YOUR time." The only question though is how many of us are willing to own that and protect it all costs? I'm going for mine.<br /><br />I'm not sure why the poster broke the song up into two posts but it's still good nonetheless. Enjoy.<br /><br />Pt. 2<br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/jvgucXSlPhU&hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/jvgucXSlPhU&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>GIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06139257122687023196noreply@blogger.com4